Oh you pagan canvas, you dreadful blank page. What does a person need to write? What do people fight about? Politics? Region? Sex?
Any man, woman, or child on the street corner can tell you they need, and it's not a fifth of jack, a dumpster fire, an old REI tent. It's not (surprise) a million dollars. Dignity is worth much more. But how did that decision go? When was that decision made? Was a man in a hard spot, potentially disabled, bad leg or back, can't walk well, can't lift nothing, spends his night under a bridge with traffic as his lullaby good night, not knowing if it will drop below zero, wondering if a photographer, the photographer will stop by, swing by, bring a little food to worm the old bones, stiff back, or rest an aching gut. Now that old REI tent don't sound so bad, but that's a band-aid of broken bones. It's not even a placebo because too soon it's worn through, zipper broke, rain beading on the edge, falling in, falling down, pooling on the blankets or old REI sleeping bag, that on from the "Garage" sale where everything is still too expensive. Even for those who work, maybe they don't get enough hours to get the roof overhead. Maybe even if they could they can't. Bad back leg lungs heart brain mind, remember? And so traffic roars into the night, clips and bangs above, no end to stop, no right from wrong. Because what we all need is a place to call our own.
No, I'm not talking about politics. Just about this blog. A good friend of mine runs a blog (No One Dies Forever) where he posts every Tuesday. This has inspired me to match his work--or his work rate on his blog. With all the other writing I've got on the table right now it can't be too extensive but it can be a good practice. So here you go. A little tidbit.
i wouldn't be that perpetual bachelor in constant motion on private planes ground falling away no way to turn to, inside the eyes the mind goes blank with all the stars in the night so real, so far to touch and feel. if i sat by the door waiting, wanting something more something tangible and real, something i could put my hands on. and if you thought i statuesque, not a thinker but a being, then maybe that's what i was and all that falling away, that falling in, that falling down hadn't been for what it was but for reasons i or you or mother or father couldn't explain. that broken elbow, less than broken feelings, less than any example i could give to you of all the hurtful things we said and did and how neither of you ever came back again, never asked or tried or wished, that you could be a better brother, son, father. in the end that statue turned on that pedestal and it wasn't me all along. it was you.
Today The Evergreen State College was evacuated due to a campus wide threat.
Let me explain how this came to be.
Mind, I don't know everything. Much of it is far too big for anyone to understand by themselves.
A couple weeks ago (last week?) a faculty member at Evergreen was called out due to the fact that he refused to participate in Day of Absence, Day of Presence, a community organized event at Evergreen in which spaces are made for minorities, and diversity is highlighted and celebrated.
The faculty in question not only refused to participate (for Day of Absence, all white people, faculty, and students alike did not visit campus in order to make room for under-represented voices), he sent an email to one of the organizers of the event and explained how--not only did he not want to participate, but also about how he would have done it, and if they would like him to give a lecture on the subject of race, he'd be happy to do so.
This didn't go down well. White men explaining the implications of race to people who are not white, or male, has been around. . . forever. The point of Day of Absence was to give others the space they have been deprived of due to a system that marginalized them.
When confronted by angry students, this faculty, instead of trying for reconciliation, contact Fox News and gave interviews to right-wing outlets.
Today students were alerted that a Neo-Nazi group called Patriot Prayer, the same group the man responsible for killing two men in Portland is a part of, was planning a "free speech" protest on Evergreen's campus, set for Monday, June 5th.
The national attention Evergreen has received due to the faculty's actions (the Fox News stuff) has resulted with Evergreen being targeted today with an unspecified threat.
The campus was evacuated.
The most difficult thing about this to stomach is how it's been painted in the local news. The catalyst for this whole thing started with Day of Absence. The local news and right-wing outlets paint this day as if it were in a vacuum, but it's not. There is also a Day of Presence where everyone comes together and celebrates the diversity Evergreen holds. The Day of Absence is supported and agreed on by the whole community. Lines from news sources use the phrases like, "white people banned from campus," which just isn't the case. What this faculty essentially said, was "I don't want to be an alley." But then to run to right-wing outlets--it has put the campus and the students, his students, in real danger.
To all those affected today: stay smart, stay safe. Be there for each other.